Month: May 2019

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Take your ideas for a walk

List 2 or 3 ideas, thoughts, or aspirations that are important to you. They can be related to anything.
  1. Plan: Under each thought, write out some steps that you would have to take to turn your idea into reality. You can work from the present moment or think about it in reverse as if it is the moment before your idea becomes tangible. The number of steps will vary, but do your best to go into detail. It will make the next step easier. There is no time frame on how long you spend in the planning stage, but be careful to not get caught up in the minute details. Finding a happy medium between too much and too little detail takes practice.
  2. Execute: Pick one of the ideas or thoughts and start to implement the steps from the planning stage. As you progress through each step, take note of your feelings. Are you excited, overwhelmed, confused, bored, insecure, optimistic or something else? Allow these feelings to guide you. If confused, take a second to gain some clarity perhaps through research or conversation with others. If overwhelmed, take a second to pause. There are no deadlines unless you self-impose and if there are deadlines, a moment to pause will do more good than harm. If insecure, try the self-inquisition challenge to get to the root of your insecurity. If excited, take a moment to pause and then keep on moving. Keep moving through the steps until your thought or idea has been manifested.
  3. Do it again: Take note of what you learned during the planning and executing phases and do it all again, with the same idea or with a new one. It is completely up to you!

take a look at Show Up for Yourself: PED for some inspiration.

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Show Up for Yourself: PED

All of us have brilliant ideas; however, many of these ideas will stay in our idea incubator unless we put them into action. One thing that I’ve always struggled with is showing up for myself and showing up for my ideas. The old pattern looked a bit like this: 1) I have new ideas. 2) I write them down, sometimes even share them with friends. 3) I don’t do anything about or with the aforementioned idea. Aspirations, ideas, and thoughts would sit on a shelf in my mind, untouched. In some cases, they were forgotten until something stirred it up. A perfect example is this blog platform. A few years ago, I told some friends, “I think I want to start a vlog to keep track of and share my thoughts, ideas and focus on growth.” This statement stayed an idea, was forgotten and was stirred up in a new form. Less than a month ago when I told my friend, “I think I’m going to start a blog to catalog this journey of personal growth”, she reminded me of the vlog idea that I thought was long forgotten.

How I showed up for myself

The main difference between the vlog idea and this blog was that I showed up for my idea. I took it seriously and began to plan. I wrote things down, I told my accountability partners, I did some research and I got to work. Every time I thought about giving up on my idea, I reminded myself that no one else can take my ideas for a walk and put them into words except me. If I didn’t create and take up this space, someone else would create their own space, but it would never be the same as mine. With that spark and some other reminders, I owned that I had to be the person to plan, execute and do it again and here you are reading my next post.

Let’s get real

I realize that the way I described the development of this platform may sound simple and that is the farthest thing from the truth. When planning, it is easy to get wrapped up in logistics of the ideas that you have. You can plan mentally, get flustered by the mental plan and then become overwhelmed or turned off by my own idea. To be honest, I definitely got wrapped up in logistics like the website layout and almost didn’t launch my blog. I wanted to present the most complete version of my idea and something didn’t feel right. That was really my underlying perfectionism, that I often try to deny, rearing its head. Thankfully, at this point in my journey, I was able to push past this perfectionism, take the next step and get the ball rolling again.

Explaining PED

I have adopted a new pattern that I call PED: 1) plan, 2) execute, 3) do it again. The Latin and Greek root, ped, means foot. This works well with this PED pattern because it’s a reminder to take the first step and then another one. Once you put in the work to make your thought tangible, it’s time to execute. After execution, reflect on the work that you just did, take some notes, think about what you’d do differently next time and then plan your next step (do it again). I believe that it is incredibly important to be flexible with this process. Starting with a plan does not lock you in and prevent the integration of improvements or changes.

Sometimes naturally and at other times with great effort, this plan or method can be applied in all areas of life. In school you have assignments, at work you have tasks, at home you have chores and in life you have aspirations that you can create a plan for, execute and do again. Let’s apply the same structure, PED, and take the first step in turning a concept into reality. Whether it is a new business idea, a class that you want to take or teach, a creative venture, a country that you want to visit, a program that you want to apply for, a book you want to write, a person that you want to connect with, a new goal that you’re working towards or anything else that you can fathom, show up for yourself and your idea by practicing a living PED. I know it feels great for me to do it.

Living PED

Along with this blog, some other ways that I live and practice PED include singing and dancing again, joining a book club, starting with a new therapist, learning a new language, working on program application for next professional steps, connecting with people and growing my network, and picking up new projects at work that challenge and excite me. All of these now executed plans are important to me for different reasons and serve different purposes while fostering physical, intellectual, emotional, mental and professional growth. Hopefully, you will take some time to practice PED and show up for yourself and your ideas. Take a look at this week’s challenge “take your ideas for a walk” for some instruction.  

A word of caution

To readers, like me, who like to put a lot on their plate: while living and practicing PED is better than leaving your ideas idle, every thought does not need to be acted on at the same time. That can easily lead to burn out, frustration, and mental, emotional, financial or physical strain. Take a few moments to do some pre-planning and practice discernment and prioritization. PED can begin once this important step is done.

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The Beautiful Challenge Continues

A year and three days ago, I graduated from university. In the months approaching graduation, I worked with my counselor to ensure that, no matter what situation I found myself in, I would be emotionally resilient and grounded after graduation. The plan was to focus on maintaining and growing my identity, practicing honest and open communication with myself and others, taking up space, holding myself and allowing others to hold me accountable, and taking care of my physical body. This was a great idea in theory, but there was truly no way for me to be prepared for the post-graduation low that hit me very hard. As my experience in university shaped, molded and dragged me, the months following graduation did as well.

Hello, real world

I went through a process of feeling very lost, unsuccessful, miserable, and disappointed in myself. I wallowed in these feelings for a few months and every aspect of my life was impacted. Interpersonal relationships hit rough points, friendships were strained, I felt physically ill and spiritually disconnected. I had people in my life who supported me, but I also felt very alone and like I was supporting everyone else; being a rock for others while feeling untethered. In many ways, I felt like I had regressed.

Emotionally and mentally, I felt like I had before I’d ever stepped in a counselor’s office. I knew this wasn’t true because I was more mindful about my thoughts and how they impacted me, but I felt like I couldn’t flip the energy, change the narrative and find the bright side like I usually could. I fell back into old habits like avoiding my feelings, not communicating openly and honestly, allowing myself to be consumed by everyone else’s life, not maintaining boundaries, and over thinking in a very black or white way without any space for gray. Physically, I went from maintaining this independent and faux self-sustained life to being back home with my parents. I stopped doing yoga and meditating and started eating emotionally again.

You are not alone

Everything seemed to be in a downward spiral until I started having open and honest conversations with other friends of mine who had recently graduated. Nearly all of us realized that we were going through it regardless of what job we had or didn’t have, if we were starting graduate programs or got rejected from all the programs we applied to, or even remotely had a plan. A major transition was happening and many of us, even the proactive, were unprepared for the onslaught of emotional, financial, mental, and physical turmoil. The thing that made it even more challenging was feeling like I was in it alone; like I was the only person who was having these thoughts and feelings when, in reality, I had plenty of company.

There was this excitement and denial, for some, about entering the real world. It was our time to call all of the shots, live our best lives, travel the world untethered, grow professionally and so much more. We were leaving behind our microcosm of the world and being thrust into the real deal with a new level of independence to explore. Depending on your education, 5 years prior, in high school, you were raising your hand to ask for the bathroom, had limited choices in your coursework and had a structured schedule. In college, there was more independence with a nice helping of structure and then BAM! hello, real world with no predetermined structure. That’s a lot to take in and adjust to.

Reshaping my narrative

As my conversations with friends and loved ones became more frequent, my mindset began to shift. I took time to tackle each of my negative thoughts and dissect them with my favorite question: why? Here’s an example of using why and question words constructively: Why do I feel unsuccessful? What does success mean? Whose definition of success am I trying to live up to? What is my definition? When will I start living my own definition? Will I be happier living my own definition? Following this type of self-inquisition of thoughts related to happiness, success, communication, etc., I took actionable steps to reshape my narrative.

This process will look different for everyone but for me, it took the form of my sticky notes self-care corner. This corner of my room became my structure, schedule and constant reminder of the things that amounted to success and resulted in my happiness at that time. The system was color-coded and categorized activities that fed my body, mind, and soul. I would shift around the notes each day and try to do at least 4 of the activities to ensure that I was doing something to feed my body, mind, and soul every day. Eventually, I did not need to rely on the sticky notes to do an activity in each of those categories. It began to happen naturally and felt like less of a personal challenge. Following this practice, everything in my life did not just fall into place. In reality, many other things fell apart but such is life. It’s all a matter of how you allow the external to impact your inner space, what I like to call my inner aura.

my self-care corner.

My view on life as a beautiful challenge has not changed; however, it has a new element. Life will continue to challenge me while I foster growth and change with my own challenges. In short, the beautiful challenge continues.  

call to action – personal challege

For anyone who is going through a time of confusion, disappointment or any difficult emotion, take some time to take note of the thoughts that are feeding that feeling. Try this week’s challenge: self-inquisition.

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It’s been a beautiful challenge

senior reflection speech that I gave on May 17th 2018 at Georgetown’s Multicultural Graduation Ceremony, Harambee.

Class of 2018, family, friends, guests, it is truly an honor to share with you all tonight. I am Mia, a Biology of Global Health major and Women’s and Gender Studies minor from New York. I think it is only right that I start by saying congratulations! You have worked incredibly hard to reach this point and should be very proud of yourselves. Whether you realize it or not at this moment, each of you has accomplished a great feat! So please take a moment to applaud yourselves (make them clap for themselves)

When asked about my Georgetown experience, I sum it up to a beautiful challenge that I am grateful to have experienced and survived. The terminology beautiful challenge came to me my junior year as I was entering one of the most emotionally challenging times in my life. The words beautiful and challenge are simple while they hold so much meaning. As a person who likes to receive good news last, I will start with the meaning that “challenge” holds in my story. Not that a challenge is a bad thing because you know you can’t grow inside your comfort zone.

But, as we all know and have experienced, Georgetown is a tough place to be. While I have not heard the words “you don’t belong here” I have felt it. Each day presented me with new challenges to face and overcome. Freshman year challenges included surviving NSO (new student orientation) week, getting lost on campus, finding my classes, making friends, homesickness, procrastination, and struggling with feelings of alienation and isolation when I looked around my class and saw no faces that looked like mine. Sophomore year included defining my course of study, struggling with aspects of my identity, having my numerous commitments catch up to me while still finding my voice and space on campus, situationships, shifting friend groups, the sophomore slump, financial struggles, losing grandparents, and so much more. Then there was junior year; moving on up to the big leagues. At this point, I dealt with the pressure to lead, think about the future seriously, secure internships and potential jobs, made and lost friends, felt stuck emotionally, and reached a breaking point. Next up: senior year which came with a boatload of mixed emotions and challenges. Balancing relationships, dropping pre-med, confronting my own issues after avoiding them for so long, rejections from post-grad plans, just to name a few. Now, I know all that was heavy, but remember I said I like to save good news until the end.

Just as Georgetown challenged me, I challenged it and this process taught me how important it can be to reshape and reframe your own narrative and find the beauty in every challenge. I am proud to say that in my time at Georgetown, I have made my mark. During my freshman year, I was part of a group of students known as the Last Campaign for Academic reform that mobilized, organized, and pushed the administration to make a change and include a diversity requirement in the core requirements of every student at Georgetown. As an institution that values community in diversity and educating the whole person, it only makes sense that students who come through Georgetown take time inside the classroom to explore and engage with difference. I am happy to say that the requirement is now entering its second year. Of course, this is not the only thing that I was involved with during my freshman year, but being a part of that amazing group of students helped me step out of my comfort zone and use my voice and skills to create change. I was able to continue to grow these skills during the summer following my freshman when I was an intern with a DC-based non-profit, ONE DC.

In my sophomore year, I continued to engage in the community in different ways. I continued my internship, sang in the Gospel choir, danced with Black Movements Dance Theater, became a woman of Alpha Kappa Alpha Sorority, Incorporated and grew as a leader with the Minority Association of Pre-Health Students. Being in these different spaces engaging with other minority students on campus and reflecting on my course work, I truly began to take time to explore my own identities, especially as a black woman on Georgetown’s campus. I began to engage in more conversation about intersectionality and my life as a determined, spiritual, cisgender, Caribbean-American woman, whose family was part of the upper middle class. I had conversations with my friends, my spiritual guides on campus and my professors. I also began to think more about the identity that I had created for myself here at Georgetown. I found myself overwhelmed in silence but continued to press on and engage in my numerous extracurriculars on top of my pre-med courses.

The summer going into my junior year, while struggling with organic chemistry, I decided to start going to counseling on campus after being encouraged by a dear friend. In this space, I thought about the ways that I, like so many students, were parts of numerous clubs, double majoring, sacrificing sleep and just engaging in a generally unhealthy culture of stress and busyness. To combat this, as a resident of the Black House, I put on numerous events that focused on self-care from coloring with chaplains to movie nights, and my “Let’s Talk Hair” events. I was so determined to take care of the community that I forgot about myself even after constant reminders from Dav and Shola until I found a new counselor who changed my life. The summer before senior year, I got away from Georgetown and went back home. It was the longest time that I had been at home since arriving here (at Georgetown) freshman year. Being away, I had the space to grow and have conversations with myself and I came back to Georgetown in senior year with a new attitude and energy.

As a senior, I am happy to say that I have been transformed during my time at Georgetown. I have found my passions and purpose. I have grown into my own with the help of my professors, staff, and the people that I call my chosen family, my friends. I am definitely not the same person that walked onto Georgetown’s campus four years ago and for that I am grateful. This ride called the beautiful challenge dragged, shaped and molded me into the woman who stands in front of you today. But it is not over. Going forward we will continue to be challenged in a multitude of ways and also experience moments of pure bliss and beauty. I hope that each and every one of you will not forget what happened here, take the good, the bad, and the ugly from Georgetown and help it guide and propel you. May you remember to take deep breaths, reshape and reframe your own experiences, and revel in your greatness.

Thank you all for listening and taking a ride on the Beautiful Challenge with me. Hoya Blaxa!

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Welcome to My Inner Aura

Welcome and thank you for taking a few moments to peek into my inner aura. I intend for this blog to be a space to catalog and encourage personal growth for myself and my readers; a space for exploration of the mind-body connection. Check out the site for blog posts, personal growth challenges, and original art work!

Views and opinions expressed on this site are my own and do not represent any entity beyond myself.